Wake-up call

"Words are life. 
All those pages, they're for you to fill"

And i've been staring at this monitor of mine on what  to write; what to tell. It has been almost half a year since i last written in here; my small world.

At some point, my thoughts has been swimming around in my head. If i'm good enough, i'll share it with the best person that will forever understand and never judged me even before or after the tell. But most of the time, i will scribbles them down in my tiny blue book.

Lately, there are more of sudden wake up note written everywhere and here's a one of them that i won't mind sharing to the public. Most of them are private but not specifically written in my daily  journal.

30th May 2014 - 10.40am.

It never occurs to me that growing up could be so challenging and no fun at all. There will always be rules for you to follow, the don'ts for you to ignore but a huge temptations for you to make do of it inspite what people might say. No wonder, all the adults (oh well, most of them) will always tell you that "make sure you enjoy your childhood as much as you can before you enter the world of reality" Even now, i say them all to my nephews. It is truly true been told because once you enter adulthood, there is no turning back - and all decisions are made in your very bare hands. You will surely be wholly responsible with each of them own once the decisions are made. Unlike when you were young, where you will only make do the decisions decided by your guardians and you are not responsible to them because they told you to do that; so you just be the followers, followed their orders.

But now; it is impossible. Because this is life. Your life and you are responsible with all the future in front of you. Your path.

and now, i need to make a change with my life.