a new chapter

I grew up with fairy tales in my head.

From The Little Mermaid to Cinderella to Snow White and never ending list of Disney's cartoons.
In silent, I wish upon the brightest stars for Prince Charming to rescue me from my darkest rabbit hole where I have kept all my insecurities and deepest secret of my inner self.
In the dark, I was there fighting my own inner thoughts, contemplating with my confidentiality of split personalities.

I was doomed to be labelled as the most unstable, emotional young woman that doesn't really know what I want, what I needed in my life but the truth is, selflessly i just want a simple happiness with my loved ones. My support systems that will not judge me by my actions. That will not judge me by what i've said. Because those living persons that i called themselves as my support systems should know how to read me behind my actions and words.

Hence, moving towards the next chapter in life excites me but at the same time scares me to death. I need guidance, I need supports. I really confuse in what I should do and what I shouldn't do. What I want is just a happy ending. But somehow, it is not as easy as what the cartoons taught us. Happy ending does exists but in a hard way.

And for that to happen smoothly, I need my support systems.